Excitement turns to Worry

Well, we have been so excited about this new baby, however, Monday brought us some new
worries. Monday the 22, I had gone to the restroom and when I wiped there was some bright red blood. My stomach had also been crampy. I immediately thought the worst. I called Jerrod crying and he left work and we went to Urgent Care. We were there for 3 hours!! I had a catheter, blood work, and a regular ultrasound as well as a vaginal ultrasound. During the ultrasound the tech had not seen a heartbeat and told me he thought I was much earlier than we had thought. The doctor came in with the blood results and told me that my hcg levels were 597 which was most likely bad news if I was in fact as far along as we had thought. He did say there was a chance we could just be earlier than we thought and he told me to call my doctor to get another blood test. I called Dr. Richmond's office on Tuesday and his nurse called me back and wanted me to come in on Wednesday morning for some blood work. We went in about 9 in the morning. The lab tech told me we would get the results probably the next day or later the week. That was not good to hear, however, I got a call that afternoon from the nurse. She said my levels had doubled and were 1451 which was a good sign. This has been such an emotional roller coaster for me. They set us up with another appointment. We go in on Tuesday the 30th, to get my blood drawn again and for another ultrasound. I pray that we can see a heartbeat this time. I'm still having a lot of discharge lately, however it isn't the bright red, and is more of a dark brown. I have also heard this is a good sign. I keep hearing stories from other ladies who have gone through this same type of ordeal and delivered healthy babies. I try to focus on all the positives and not so much the negative. I am extremely worried however, and the waiting is very hard. I have been having some pregnancy symptoms though - which I also try to look at as a positive. I have been very tired, and also a bit nauseous these past few days. Tomorrow (or technically today actually) is my birthday. Jerrod is taking off work for me. I am very grateful. Hopefully the day will go quickly and Tuesday will be here soon! I can't think of a better birthday present than to find out the baby is okay and healthy! Jerrod's mom is coming down on Tuesday to watch the boys so that Jerrod will be able to go in with me. That is the hardest part about this not being our first baby. Jerrod has to watch Logan and Owen while I go in by myself to the appointments. I could really use his support and have him with me - especially now, so I'm very glad he will be able to be in there with me for the ultrasound.

On another note - today (Sunday) Logan was sick. He was coughing a big on Saturday, but nothing big. Sunday morning his cough seemed to be getting worse. When we were in church, he was wanting me to hold him - which is rare for this active 3-year-old, and I felt his forehead and he had a fever. He slept on me throughout church. We got him home and got him some Tylenol and he was back to his old self. He didn't have a fever or anything. He was playing so we figured he was okay and went back to evening church. However when we got there, he was wanting me to hold him again and he felt warm again! He slept on me throughout that service too. I'm guessing he must have just been feeling good due to the Tylenol and wasn't really back to normal. When we got home we gave him some more medicine, put him in his jammies and turned on a movie. He came and laid down by me and he felt pretty warm. I took his temperature and it was 101.2. I hope he gets better soon!

Now as far as Owen goes - well he's being a little bugger about saying "mama." I think he thinks it's funny that he won't say it to me. He has said it in the past and usually says it when he is upset, but most of the time it's "dada dada dada!" He says "baa" (ball) and "baybee" (baby) and "gaga" (unknown - sometimes says it after we say Bocca or Grandma) and "baba" (which is usually what I get when I tell him to say mama). He has also turned into quite the little daredevil. He loves to climb in the little chairs and stand up in them. Then he looks at Jerrod and me and laughs!! He is pretty pleased with himself when he does this. The main thing he loves to do is climb up on the little chair in the kitchen, then proceed to climb up on their little table, stand up on it and reach for the counter!! We take him down when he does this, but I'm very worried about him falling off that table! It isn't very tall, but the floor is tile and if he fell the wrong way it would not be the best for little Owen! Well, I think that wraps us up for now!!

In the dark!!

Well we are on our 5th day without power. It is certainly no fun! There was a horrible ice storm here, most people started losing power on Friday, we thought we were going to avoid it all, but Sunday afternoon, ours went out. It is now early early Friday morning and it is still out. Sunday night we stayed there, but it was pretty cold. Monday, we drove up to Joplin and stayed the night with Jerrod's mom. We had to get up at like 6:00 in the morning because Jerrod had to drive back up and go to work. The boys and I went to work with him. It was not much fun! Luckily he was able to leave around noon. We drove around a bit and got some lunch. We also test drove a new car - seeing as we are going to need to get a larger car for the new baby! We called our friends Dusty and Lacy after seeing our power was not going to be back on, and they said that we could stay with them. So Tuesday night we stayed at their house. Logan and Brayden had a blast!! I thought for sure it would be on the next day, so I loaded everything up. I also had an appointment on Wednesday to get an official pregnancy test done. Positive of course - and they scheduled an ultrasound for me for the 31st of January! I am super excited about that. Dusty and Lacy said if we still didn't get power that we could come stay with them again. We went to church that night and afterwards went back to the apartment and still no lights! So we went back to Dusty and Lacy's. We are so lucky to have such great friends who would open up their home to us. We also had many many other people offer. We are very blessed to have such a wonderful group of friends! I got everything packed up around noon on Thursday and took the kids and went to Republic and ate lunch with Jerrod. We also spent the rest of the afternoon there. Of course once again, I was sure we'd have power, but we never got it back on. We hated to burden our friends again, so we called around to get a hotel. No where in Springfield or the surrounding towns had any vacancies. I ended up calling a hotel in Branson and they did. So we drove up there. They were giving good pricing for residences of the Springfield area. We went to eat at Fuddruckers for dinner - it was our first time there. We all really enjoyed it. I'm back at the hotel now - it is technically Friday morning. It is a nice hotel and does have wi-fi so I can do a little bit of catching up. I have so much work I need to do though!!! I truly hope we can get back home and settled soon! The boys are doing a good job. Logan is having a blast. This is just like an adventure for him. He loves hanging out at Daddy's work and Brayden's house. Owen, on the other hand, does not like all this change. He loves sleeping in his own crib and routine so this has been very hard on him.

One thing I thought for sure I had wrote about but once again didn't - was Owen getting his top 2 molars. I saw them a couple weeks back and was definitely going to write it down - well we know how good I am about that stuff! I think it was January 6th - if not then it was a couple weeks back in December. I really hope I can get better at the stuff.

Big News!!

Well, I got some exciting news today!! My period was a couple days late, so I decided to buy a pregnancy test at Wal-Mart. Boy was I suprised when I saw the postive result!! The last day or so I had been hoping that I would be, but didn't want to get my hopes up too much! This pregnancy wasn't planned like the last two, but I am still unbelievably excited and can't wait for all it has to bring! My due date is September 16, 2007, which is also my grandma Gebauer's birthday. I am only 4 weeks and 5 days along, so it is still very early, but I have already blabbed to quite a few people!! Just too excited to contain it! I really want to do a better job this pregnancy of keeping track of things and making sure to write things down. I didn't do the best with Logan and Owen, so I really hope I can remember to! I'm hoping this blog will help with that as well!